It's All About Me
Thursday, October 11, 2007
No End in Sight...Im sitting here...in the library, with Choco...staring him directly in the face as he studies, while I'm studying..Him. Why should the fates be so mean as to bring us together when I am in my most vulnerable female state? I am officially off *happy time*, still studying my ass off, which ALWAYS means I get really, really horny knowing I could be getting some instead of doing this paper...and..AND, Im here with Choco!! This is soooo wrong on so many levels...I have fantasized for years about this opportunity, to be her upstairs in the library, WITH him...*sigh*, here we are, sitting at the same table, in a study room, yes A fucking ROOM, not just those little cubby holes, but an actual room...gawd, I must have been really, really bad in my past life. True, he called me and said come up and study with me, as I was somewhere else in the school tryna get ishh done, he called and offered to molest me in the dark corners of the library....and we both knew that was not gonna happen, and so I made him promise to behave. He has an exam, and I have to do this paper and we are both-er, well, he is on task. I ...am wondering why I turned up in comfy ass boring clothes ( cute swweat pants, runners, long-sleeve t, no makeup) and he...well he is fuckalicious. Wearing his favorite team jersey, reppin his cowboys, with a matching hat...not what I expected from someone who was up studying late last night, and up early today. Double damn. My goodies aren't even relatively suggested in this outfit. My daycare told me I look tired...
And so.
Is it wrong that I am sitting here blogging, daydreaming about the very thing/person that I have always wanted, in the situation I have fantasized about...and yet, I am unable to move past a professional, studious position...and take advantage of this fine, chocolate....lemme stop.
Why he keep glancing up at me?
Is he having the same kind of thoughts????
Should I move closer and go in for a piece...or stand my ground and let him work...
Lemme get just a taste...but you know from my last post, he is my drug, just one hit, and I want MORE...I can never really stop with him...I ..must...study....
Le sigh.
