It's All About Me
Sunday, June 24, 2007
WOW...just ...wow...I have to first and foremost give out some LUVE to Xavier. You are a huge part of me feeling the way I do. I was cynical towards love, and in an unhappy place for a long time. Thank you for allowing me to do things on my own and never passing judgement..only being the most amazing friend I have.
Everyone else probably is wondering what the hell is going on.
BD and I are done. I was given the last straw so to speak...and a series of events opened my eyes to what I was really entangled in.
Since then, I randomly met someone through a mutual acquaintance and we are pretty much made for each other.
So soon? Yeah I know it may seem crazy...but if you know me on a personal level, I have been without a real relationship for a long time. Co-habitation does not a relationship make.
He is incredible, he has been through some of the craziest hardships in a relationship. He and I are so much the same person, only not. We will call him JD.
We don't eat, we don't sleep, and all we do is talk on the phone, or IM while he's at work, and as soon as he's home we connect as soon as possible. I take him with me everywhere. He is in my heart, on my mind, and in my soul. I have tried to not feel for him how I do, but to deny it would be just silly.
We have been talking for 2 weeks. Today, being that 'two week anniversary', we met up in person.
This was one of the best days, and the most stressful.
I was so scared, to meet him, and be open. I never realized how much I was affected in my relationship with BD, until I was out of it.
